Hello Readers , since i have a few mins to spare , i might as well share a piece of mind with all of you . Recently , my life became horribly miserable .
2 months and & 7 days ....
I thought i could get over you easily .
But i couldnt bring myself to do it .
Everyday i have been jogging 2.4 km , the main reason that my mind doesn't feel mentally tired was all because of you . Every step i took , you occupied 70% of my mind .
Whenever i saw couples , I thought about you .
Whenever i saw guys that resembles your back view , my mind would sudddenly be bombarded with everything about you .
1 word , 5 letters . That's your name ; was carved deeply at the back of my mind .
Infactuation wasn't easy .
I tried to text you , and every sms you reply i leaked out a smile .
I tried to focus all my attention on my sms to you , because i want to capture your attention such that you will reply .
But sometimes , you just wouldnt reply , and crap some excuses to me ..
I remembered how sad I was the last time when you ignored my last text .
I remembered how fear I was to touch on your name to send you another SMS .
I tried and tried , but why are you still hiding within me ?!
I tried to pacify myself with eye candies in school . Oh yes , they were pleasing .
But I still prefer you .
I tired to so hard to lose weight , to make myself skinny such that i fits into your expectation .
I tried to focus all my attention on dance . Oh yes , every movement i demonstrates reminds me of the time i danced with you .
Every time i do math , I have to box everything about you up and chunk into into one corner of my brain in order to focus .
Obviously , this was a one sided crush .
I didn't knew it was that hard to forget , but yet I lacked the confidence to confess to you .
Well , I think i will never do so .
Everytime i walk on the road , I hope that god bless me that i would not see you holding another girl's hand , because that would drive me to suicide .
So far , god have been kind , to put you in Tampines , and me in Ang Mo Kio .
However , I realised i need to make an important decision .
Should I wait ? 1 year , 2 years or 3 years ? for us to meet upon on a random road again .
or should i give up ? ( but idk how to , readers please guide me through ) . ;[
It was my first time being so attracted to someone , it feels like i have ate a iron and you ate a magnet , pulling me so strongly towards you .
The feeling was just so random and strange ...
Im' sorry readers for posting such a boring post about my personal issue , but i do hope to share w all of you about what i am concerned about now .
Do leave your comments in the text box ! thanks (:
